ola earthlings...

sowie to abandoned this blog again...

have been alot of things happened to me...

BUT the worst tragedy ever was the accident!!!

i was shocked n till nw i still scared to cross the road or ride a motorbike even wif my father...

BUT after the tragedy happens it had opened up my eyes to be more careful nxt tyme...

BUT he still MINE!!!!!!!!!

no one cn get hym away frm me...

aftr the tragedy happens, my parents is abit more strict wif me..

which i cant believe it...

Y??? y must just coz of one mistake i did wrong u have to punish me till lyke tiz...

u cn see y i dun talk sooo much wif my parents...

coz i still upset...nape mest satu kesalahan ibu & ayah uruh akak jgn kuar,jgn msg fauzi, jgn umpe der n jgn nk alek lmbt...!!!

NAPE???

Ibu u noe tat i hv been wif hym 4 sooo long n u noe tat we luv each other soooooooooooooooo mmmmmmmmmmmuuuuuuuuuuuucccccccchhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!

N i noe i cant let our rel to be destroyed coz of this accident....

N for ayah: y u dun understand my feelings towards fauzi...akak ukan nk sembunyi kn perkara nie dar ayh tap ayh sendri tk phm!!!!

ayah taw nk MENGAMOK je...

akak juz feel tat i wan ayah n ibu to noe tat i wan hym in mah lyfe n dun ever hurt hym coz tiz is our fault n not onli hym....

make tat straight???

I LOVE IBU,AYAH & FAUZI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

For fauzi,

im glad to have you by my side n i hope u gonna tepati ur PROMISES towards me wif all ur heart...

I TERLALU SGT SYGKN U!!!!

PLs JGN TGL KN I!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FOR ibu & ayah,

i also luv u guys...

n im nt being rude here bt i juz feel tat u guys dun understand wat im gg thru...

UNDERSTANDING IS A NEED IN TEENAGERS LYFE...

n im nt being stubborn or more to fauzzi bt i cant accept tat u guys wan to take away my freedom,take away hym frm my lyfe n wen u asked nt to msg hym is juz soooo difficult to do tat...if u guys were at my place would u guys stresssed up???

MESTI ibu n ayah klu adr pt position akak,ibu n ayah pn bigit kn...coz da lame berhubungan n coz of satu kesilapan yg hampir le bawa maut den nk kene berpisah dgn si dia!!!BIGIT KN???

IBU & AYAH shld put urself IN MY SHOES den u noe WAT IM FEELING RITE NW!!!!!

i juz wan fauzi to be accepted in our family...

n i wan fauzi, ibu & ayah IN MAH LYFE

ola earthlings...i hv been ignoring mah bloggie fer soo long alr...hahas..n 2dae i feel to blog sumtink bout wat hd happen..basically i hv to werk n sch at the same tyme..n tmrw im werking frm morning to closing...HAIZZZZZZZ>....for 2dae bloggie i wld lyke to share sumtink bout me n u...including fwenz,mah bf n ppl ard me and nt forgettting mah family...

First up, is abt me n hym...he hv been changing alot..after being together more than 3 years, we have been alot of thick n thin of our rel..im here to express mah feeling to u again tat i do reali luv u...n i reali wan tat hym tat i noe frm the start of mah life..at times, i alwaes been wondering whether u r reali meant fer me anot coz at times i feel u dun even care bout me...i juz wan us to be a lovely n happie couple as usual...i hv alwaes been wondering rite nw since u hv a bike fer urself n im reali afraid of tings tat i dun wan to happen wil happen...n nw i feel tat u hv been a bit kasar wif me n i reali feel far apart frm u day aftr day coz u make me feel lyke tat..theres ones u evr said tiz to me,"da la u emuer tk le beh joke ginie pn tk le"i reali kecik ati bt i try nt to coz i take it lightly...u  hv been dere fer u n i hv been dere to sacrifice fer u..u slalu ckp u anyak scarifice utk i bt i pn u...i pn adr scarifice utk u...DO YOU KNOW THAT??!!! i juz wanna u to tink back n keep to ur promise bt if u tink u cant keep to ur promises ten dun gv a high hope to me...coz i do luv n care bout u...there's one tyme u evr sae that u promise u gg to gv me the first one to see ur first bike bt wen i heard u ovr the phone tat ure happie to get a bike  alr ,im also happie fer u...bt wen u sae tiz "wen kter free nnt i unjuk u la motor i k....mon i g amek motor pag den im gg to study wif mah fwenz" is lyke watevr promise n swit talking phrases is juz a fake hope to me...u janji laen n u uat laen...i reali hv tiz firasat tat our lyfe will be far diff frm our lyfe rite nw...im gg to juz wait n see...if u do reali luv me den care bout me...i dun expect u to care fer me all dae long bt juz gv me the attention tat i nid 2 jek...

Secondly, bout ppl ard me...hmm..kk theres tiz gerl or shld i sumone out dere kip on staring at me wen i passers by her n her fwenz...is juz soo irritating..act wat u wan frm me huh???!!!adr ku hutang ko bende per...pragai cm udak2 nk ngok org atas bwh...if u look at me coz im pwetti, i will juz sae thks sooo much bt if u stare me fer other tings den wat is it???!!! klu ko pikir ko gt evryting den be it..i dun care n fer me ure nt as cute or pwetti as i tink wen i saw u...FUCKERS!!!coz u juz look lyke one rubbish out dere..jgn nk step big klu diri sndri tk le jage...PHM!!!

thirdly,bout mah fwenz...i juz luv dem n wan em to be at mah side..bt of course la at times i do feel sooo bored n irritated wen my mood swings...i hv lost one n i will nvr lost another...

Lastly,mah werk...juz freaking tired...werking all dae along n feels lyke gg to die soon....hahas...n exam is cuming up which im still stuck at bps...haiz...PAY...my salary shld be in on wed bt stil yet to received it...

k la toddles...tiz is wat i wanted to share...act got alot more bt tiz is the onli ting tat cum up straight to mah mind rite nw...hahas...

Ola earthlings, here i am agaen..k hv been werking n legs n body reali hurts lyke hell till nw..n tmrw there's werk again..lyke reali hell yea..hahas..werking frm 1 to 10pm..fer nw im werking at charles n keith, ION!!

soo yerp, lets talk bout 2dae la kn..sch was reali darn bored coz nt much of doings..soo yerp...sending project n all..soo aftr sch tot of gg out wif kat as act it was our day out together..k hhmm..b4 tat i hv sum hard feelings which hd been happening in sch juz nw..soo yerp..rase kecik ati ikit r..bt the rest was abit fine..k den aftr skool straight temankn sarah to werk n mkn skali la kn..bt as fer kat, she went hme as she was sick..den me n sarah wen off to somerset fer lunch..at ard 2 45 sarah's hv to report fer werk soo yerpp send her to werk at charles n keith 313..den during the lunch received msg frm shifah..

k la crite der cm ginie..decided to meet shifah at queensway..coz i want to send my pants fer alteration..shifah aderla ckp iqa mit pt bstop b4 the bridge taw n i replied i tink i noe..so yerp..

Shifah: iqah,ku da pai bstop nie? ko pt ner?

me: ku maseh nga unggu bus agy...

shifah: nnt ko nmpk ku pt bstop ko trn taw..

me: ouhk..bye!!

pas tu i didnt saw her at tat bstop den biler da dok jerk i saw her standing in front of the bus door..waiting fer me to alight..she tot i saw her..hahas..soo funny!!we shld act took a photo of our faces..reali funny la kn...hahas..there's alot of thhings happening..laugh n gossips fully ard our spaces..hahas..aftr all walking n aftr all sending mah suar alteration went anchor point fer a small walk den off to eat at this particular kedai kopi r..eat nasi grg n mutton suop..hahas..

den off hme!!!

k la toddles..luv mah all fwenz...missing their jokes at evry moment..n missing mah luv, poji juz cant wait to mit hym tmrw..

ola earthlings..again..2dae basically is more to werk training..yerp2 i got job alr..which im happie to have it..ppl,always tink charles n keith onli take chinese or any speaking chinese bt act nt..i was accepted to be part of their staff la sei..hahas..k happie fer it coz i hv job meaning i hv money to save n spend..hahas..tk yah susa2 agy..bt the onli ting tat i reali hate is to werk on weekends..arghhhh..soo yerp2..

k basically,im quite 50-50 as i reali feel soo unsecure plus i feel lyke im abdoned all mah fwenz..bt nt to fauzi coz i have alr called hym more than two times syg!!!btw i luv hym lyke seriusly TRUCKLOADS!!!hmm..yerp2 nxt up, i juz received a msg frm a fwenz of mine she wasnt reali happie of our absence fer the dae bt i try to convince her bt it seem lyke i was fully blamed abt it..bt is ouhk..no matter wat i will still luv mah gf....tey r the ones at times gv me a smile on mah face n nt forgetting poji too...

NExt up,yest i went hme wif poji den i asked hym to get me a famous amos n he sae ouhk..i wanted famous amos coz i juz eaten shifah's famous amos sooo yerp cm nk lagy g2..hahas..den u noe wat happen reach jp he asked me to show the direction to the shop..den almost reaching he sae tat he is gg fer guardian n he nvr sae tat he wan to belanje me..den i was reali upset la kn..der kater ginie.."i nk g guardian jap la,sape yg nk belanje u..u igt i nk belanje u eik??" den i was quite shocked n mah eyes were filled with tears..coz at tat tyme of point he was reali serius n hys face do show it..so yerp...a bit upset bt in the end is juz a joke frm hym la kn..den he bought me two packet of famous amos..hahas..ILOVEYOU!!! n btw to her ( a friend that juz leave out fm our group) dun be jealous k??u r being a jealous person to someone tat hd more things ten u..better open ur mind up n be more mature..im nt kikis-ing duit poji k...i luve hym nt coz of money bt coz i reali luv hym...n btw i tink our group has mature thinking ten u if u wanna noe..!!pe dulu ko ckp yg grp agy satu cm udak2 n wat so ever bt nw wat HAPPEN!!!cermin tu muke ikit la da mengata org den uat cm baek lak..dun be HYPOCRITE!!tats it...

Lastly,k act i wanna share tis lyke seriusly fer soo long...juz a moment before i blog suddenly a past memories juz came true..abt friendship n family n those saddy part of mah lyfe..is lyke fer fwenz,it doesnt mean ure nt close ur arent a fwen to em..only tat ure nt close..hahas!!fwenz cn be soo good to u bt at times tey do tok bout u behind ur back..if u tink back no one in tiz werld nvr ever said aniting behind ur back..if anyone sae to u tat he/she nvr sae aniting bout u do u believe??Basically NO la kn..damn it aner adr org nk ckp tros trang..except fer me coz i prefer to be told face to face bt in a good wae nt the kurang ajr type..tk puas ckp dpn2..i noe i might be a bit sensitive bt doesnt mean i accept the confront tat u sae to me,rite??haiz..pe la naseb..ppl,always tink negative bout me is bcoz u guys get  to noe frm one side tat is closer to u..bt u nvr noe the true person of me until u get close to me as i might be abit naughty, abit serius at times, a bit of sensitive n a bit..tiz is wat we called lumrah hidop!!!

k la toddles..c ya guys at nxt post coz im drowning tired rite nw!!lyke reali hell yea!!

ola earthlings...here i am again..my 2dae topik will be about a guy tat reali prgai nk mampos r..lyke seriusly shit..he is reali sucks to the core..im sowie fer a fwen of mine if read tiz blog post coz i reali hate wen a guy hurt mah fwenz feeling..he is sooo nt honest wif ur luv..i dun noe if tiz is true bt tats wat i feel..he juz being a jerk..he cn anytime gv u hys hope n wat he replied to u tat wen do he sae the word luv to u n wen he asked u to gv hope,rite?..he is soo irrespondsible guy..y he hv to make tat word or y mus he start the relationship if he doesnt luv u..HATE TIZ!!!!!!!!!!!y mus guy always soo easy leave the gerl alone n get to another gerl..dorg igt kter ni tissue per..pas pkai buang..hei,guys out dere y mus u guys do tiz to us..if u ting u wanna use a gerl fer u to forget the past or utk uat pkai jer..den juz forget bout it..if u tink u cant forget bout ur ex den y mus u start a new relationship wif the other gerl..n wen she hugs u u gv it to her..ure juz a sweet talker...dun u dare to make those tings happen again..get away frm her life if u dun wan her animore...dun make her suffer lyke hell fer u..maybe u dun noe hw is it feel wen a lost sumone tat u reali luv..maybe u dun put urself on her shoe..maybe fer guys u tend to be more cool bt fer gerls wen tey lost sumone tat tey luv tey will be a little bit depressed..u cn c her smile n laugh bt seriusly deep inside c is reali suffer fer ur cause...DAMN IT!!!...