ola earthlings...

hehex...im sick rite nw..hving flu n cough..reali terrible to the max..whoo!!!ika i luv it...it have been few days getting the sickness stuck in mah body...huhu!!WTh?! yest one whole dae i sleep...onli wake up wen im hungry n wanting to go to the toilet..soo yerp the whole weekend is full of sleeping beauty..act sat shld hv been gg out wif my bi bt sadly im down wif flu n cough...soo yerp camcelled the plan n rest at hme..

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on fri was mum burfdae..btw HAPPIE BURDAE MUM!!!i got fer her a bonia wallet n treat her mkn..coz previously wen mother's dae i bought fer her a sembonia handbag..i share it wif mah der...we bought two of it one fer his mum n one fer mah mum...soo yerp ten tiz burfdae i tot of nt gving her aniting bt i juz feel nt good..soo yerp get her a bonia wallet whch is reali suit wif her handbag n her age...hehex...sowie mum!!

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soo yerp my skol frm mon till fri is juz v.plain dae as per normal nuthink new..u noe wat i hv a fwenz out there..c seems to be sooo irritating...in a wae la..bt still luv her coz at times c do make mah dae..hehex..i juz wonder y ppl do wan attention..i mean attention seeker..do they reali nid to do tat...i mean u hv to be urself ten ppl will lyke u..i noe it will take tyme bt tat seems better...haiz...ten sum ppl out there cant see hensem guy..i mean u cn see la tap mata tk yah tgk jer tk yah lpas per..klu lawa tkper gak..hehex...jk...act everi one pt dunia nie lawa onli urself wan to make urself lawa or juz a normal gerl..rite??!!everithing is juz a urself...

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2dae i hd a bored dae agaen coz im still down wif mah stupid flu n cough..so yerp..bt still too stubborn still wen out wif mah mum n sis to catch a movie...the story is damn bored to the max...is all coz of mah sis wase duit jer..crite A CHRISTMAS CAROL - 3D...the onli gd thing is 3D la bt the story line is damn bored..to the ppl out there who want to watch thiz movie pls dun ...dun waste ur money...seriusly...hehex..nw im waiting fer the new moon...is ard the corner jer...huhu!!! der., i miz u soooooooooooooo much..fetch me tmrw k...??!!pls...

k la toddles..

ola eathlings...

here i am again..

fer quite sum tyme i didnt actively posting..sooo sowie fer being slack..

k let me share sumtink happen on last fri,13 NOVEMBER 2009..soo the story goes lyke tiz..tat dae was my bi burfdae..soo decided to gv hym a surprise fer hys burfdae coz he did gv me a surprise burfdae..soo tiz is juz to trick hym the same..soo at first i didnt get to noe wat to gv hym on hys burfdae..a surprise tat he cn remember..soo yerp..the whole week i was reali busy wif stuff tat i cn get fer hym..i reali nid to gv hym a surprise as i hunger of tat..i wan to build the happiness tat we hv alwaes share fer the pas few years..i get hym a body shop perfume n the body wash..the smell is reali SUPERB!!i reaali lyke it..ten since i was in bajet..i get our photos ready wif poems in it and get it in a frame..at first i was nt reali statisfied..bt i reali hope he is happie back ten...ten i gt a wrapping tat is reali nice n sweet..ten i hand made a burfdae card fer hym..fer me tat burfdae card was reali terrible..coz im nt creative tot...so yerp..the plan was gg quite ouhk..first i wake up early in the morning at 5.15am juz to get ready n be at hys place by 7.30am..coz he usually get out frm hys at 745am...soo as usual im too early...bt its ouhk coz i juz dun wan the plan to cock up..he didn't noe tat i was making a surprise fer hym..soo waited til 745am..ten we was otp all the wae wen he juz get out frm hme..wen i heard hys voice at the staircase i quickly run to position to make a surprise fer hym..so yerp..at the side of the staircase & there i go...BOOM!!SURPRISE!!!HAPPIE BURFDAE!!n i gv the cute lil paper beg full of surprises n prezen...soo wen togather to skol..i send hym to skol which is at dover..coz my lesson start at 9am soo no problem fer tat..in the bus otw to interchange i ask hym to open the prezen n he did..wif all the smile he gv it to me im reali happie coz i do make hym happie at least once..even deep inside my heart im nt a perfect gerl fer hym..n i noe at tat tyme of point sumone has wishes hym first b4 me..im quite hurt bt is ouhk..still i tink i cn make hym happie nt fer long bt at least there is a smile on hys face all along..Bi,I HOPE TAT THE PHOTOS THAT I GV U KIP IT NICELY N NVR FORGETS ME if u had sumone else..all those poems r written by mahself..it reali cum frm mah dip inside mah heart...

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hmm...saturdae my dad went to hospital fer operation..it was abit of tragic moment as it reali feels so hurtful seeing my dad at the bed lying down n cant move abit...b4 the operation we had a famliy prob..nid nt nid to sae it here coz too personal...ten off to nuh..reach there ten mah dad was the first patient to cum on tyme...so yerp..ten aftr those admin stuff straight to the day surgery ward to change sum clothes n sum more admin stuff..n bla bla...about a hour ltr mah da was to leave the ward fer a moment to go fer the surgery..it is a major surgery..he has prob wit hys tissue at hys knee..it was coz by a previous accident in the late years of 1990's...ten since we cant get to see mah dad we went off to hv sum breakfast togahter wif mum n younger sis..eat chicken rice...soo aftr an hour, the nurse call to sae tat the surgery is done..soo wen off to the ward again to check out on dad..he didnt open hys eyes even tot we was talking to hym..i sat at the end of the bed crying n hoping tat everyting is gg to be fine...i msg my der bt he didnt even feel sympathy towards me at first...soo i was reali too down till i too sensitive wif everyting happening..wen my dad are able to open up hys eyes the nurse check out on hym further more to see if he is alright..so aftr awhile dad was released..he complained to me tat he was hving headache bt he still insist to be released..ten get sum food fer dad at the foodplace..b4 dad gots to eat he vomit alot..luckily we was quite fast..ten i send mah dad to the toilet to wash hys mouth n get hym to do hys small business..soo ten aftr eating..we went off hme..went we reach he straight to the bed n sleep coz he reali feel soo headache..deep down im still worry bout hym espeacially wen he had to go toilet..im afraid that he is nt strong enuft..n nw my mum getting to get asthma again..im reali soo worry wif all the things happening to me..even my der also hv alot of things to do..he hv licence to get it doing,werk n sch..i feel soo lonely rite nw..alot of things i hv to get it done by mahself..i don't mine being soo tired bt at least my people ard me are strong n healthy enuft to go ard..at times i cn be abit demanding coz i juz nid attention..bt watever happens to me im ouhk wif it..i try mah best to be wat i shld be..wanting to get a part time job bt still nt get it done coz i reali nid money fer mahself...seriusly...

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k nw..i miz mah der..coz i reali nid hys companied..even he hurt mah heart im still here wif u..even the pain kills n make so many scars it cant be heel bt still cn be forgiven..i juz dun noe hw long am i gg to be lyke tiz being soo patient bt still ppl take advantage on me..i cn be nice to u bt wen i cant take it it will be too late..im nt referring to mah der onli bt to ppl out there..ppl seems to change bit by bit..tats is fate..everione will change wen the tyme goes by..u cant expect others to be the same as wat u noe tem at first..in malay it called "LUMRAH HIDUP"...i noe no one is perfect in tiz world..bt at least get it rite by nt getting the same mistake all ovr again..i juz nid to build ur trust again coz bit by bit its gonna fade off coz u r the one hu make it..u noe y at time i say u dun luv me..is all coz u hving fun wif girls ard u n nt noeing bout mah feelings..u juz get the things go without thinking..tats y im here to teach u to tink b4 u do aniting..u cn do aniting u wan bt y nt me..IS IT FAIR fer u??if u tink is fair bt is nt fair fer me...y cant i get close n hv a guy fwenz wif me bt u cn hv a girl fwenz wif u??is it fair..NOO IS NT!!!u alwaes feel tat u re rite bt im alwaes at the fault..u r always wif ur ego...i juz feel soo pain deep inside mah heart..i luv u soo much tat i cn do aniting fer u..i sanggup tipu utk u..i sanggup gado nan mah parents juz to get out wif u wen we were first togather..remember tat??!!u slalu ckp tat u improve bt i dun seem see aniting at all...coz the same thing happen all ovr again..u i tk taw pompan aner ag u nk carik..sepenyabar aner ag u nk...i tul2 tk pasti!!!do u reali luv me??!

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k juz nw my der gt practical soo cant mit hym up..ten wen off hme wif mah fwenz..kat,ayub.sarah&din..act me n din was nt reali a talking fwenz..hahas..bt we did talk quite alot juz nw..feel quite comfortable talking to hym..mcm da knal lamer g2 padahal2..din is ayub's fwenz..ayub ni matair ny kat...soo yerpp...sarah is mah fwenz..bt c was on the phone ten mcm nk bobal nan sape ag kn..sarah,ayub n kat get down at jrg east while din get down at chinese garden & poor me at boon lay..hehex..even though is was a short period bt still me & din were able to talk n share alot..hahas..cheers DIN!!!hehex...do talk again kays??!!!hehex..

k la toddless...c ya guys soon...toddler up!!huhu!!

ola earthlings,

on last fridae wen off to karaoke wif mah ite babies..was fun tot even theres abit of sadness within me..bt i dun tink i wanna share in tiz blog..let me secured it in mah heart..onli those hu knows ten let it be aites..??!!we had alot of fun wif alot of songs..smpai suare satu2 nk ilang..hehex..nan coke ag..WOW!!SUPERB!!reach hme ard 11 plus..aftr skol straight hme n change n mit the rest at orchard mrt at ard 4plus..ten straight to forum..act tot of gg to grandlink bt mah fwenz says the equipment is nt as gd as at the karaoke box..among us sarah n aisha was the best singer aftrall..dorg ny suare tul2 merdu..at first i was abit malu bt at last i sing alot more ten the others i tink..hehex..tu la kasi ag..

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my saturdae i spent my whole dae wif my sis..bring her to bugis..get alot of stuff fer her..coz c wan sumtink tat is nice ncheap..soo bugis the onli place tat i cn tink off sei..soo yup..nk ajk poji bt hys werking..act not he wen fer kompang..i was quite angry r..at first ukan main ckp der tknk go kompang bt nw he still went..i dun mind la..bt i juz feel cheated by hym..der yg kater tknk g kompang coz hys werking n doesnt wan to mit thiz gerl to juz jage my heart bt mcm aner pon tetap go...bt nvm la kn..soo yerp wen off to bugis at ard 2 plus ten reach hme ard 9plus..

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2dae wen out wif mah mum to vivo to accompanied her to get her a bag..go tangs n get fer herself a bag for werk..soo yerp..ten mkn at banquet n macdonald..ten jln2 ard..act vivo cume bile org adr duit g saner aru best klu tk,tk gerek langsung...

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even watever happens,

watever ppl try to hurt me without their notice

i will juz accept the fate

n go on wif mah life..

i juz dun wan to hurt ppl

even my heart is deeply hurt..

k la toddles..

We all need someone
To talk to in our life,
A friend to whom we run
In times of stress or strife

A loving friend indeed,
On whom we can depend
To fulfill our every need -
Thank you, precious friend

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Rivers of my love run deep,
Into the valleys of your heart,

Neither height, nor depth,
Nor mountains too wide,

Could show you,
The depths of my Love,

Way beyond the seas,
Throughout all eternity,

Could never show you,
The depths of my love,

Into the sun,
Far beyond the sky,

A thousand tears,
That I have cried,

Could never show you,
The depths of my love,

Forgiveness beyond measure,
Memories to treasure,

Love written as a lullaby,
Enchanted dreams of you and I,

Could never show you,
The depths of my love,

Miles and time,
Song and rhyme,

Money or gain,
life or pain,

Could never show you,
The depths of my love,

Loving me, embracing me,
Eternally,

Will show you the depths of my love.

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Dad and Mum,

I'm beginning to understand life less and less everyday. When I was
young, I use to believe that I had actually had the world all figured out,
but now, as I grow, I know that having the world all figured out is
virtually impossible because I now realize that I will never understand
even the simplest things that life has to offer, like why people love who
they love, and why people fight with the ones they love the most.

People use to tell me that I was going to go places, that I was the one
that was actually going to be somebody . . . that somebody that my parents
never were, that somebody they long for me to be, and that somebody I have
always dreamed of becoming, not just to satisfy myself but also to satisfy
my family and those around me. Now it is as if my life has taken a 360
degree turn around the sharpest corner of life. I am so confused on
everything. I am now beginning to question all of my goals and
aspirations in life that I had once set for myself. Life is getting too
complicated for me, I'm to the point where I am just living day by day,
completely careless to those around me. Though I feel as if I have
everything in life that a girl could ask for - I have a lot of friends,
family, and a boyfriend that cares for me greatly, I feel more alone than
I ever have before. I just have this emptiness inside of me, and I don't
know how to fill it.

I say that I am in love, but who really knows what love is?
I guess I'm just another crazy teenager, taking one long ride on
the Roller Coaster of life. Where and when will this roller coaster stop?
Nobody knows, not even myself, all I know is I am ready to get off now.
Some days I just wish that I could be totally oblivious to the world and
other days I long for people to be around me.

I use to be a very caring person, I would do anything for anyone but now
it's as if I have no cares, and now worry about what people will think of me
if I don't do what is expected.

I have stopped living by what other people think of me and I have started
living how I want to live. I no longer act like the person I am not, I
show my true colors and many do not like them. Maybe that is why I am so
confused . . . I don't know who to satisfy, myself or the people that care
about me.

I don't think that I will ever understand this roller coaster and why I was
chosen to take this ride, right now I don't know if it will ever even come
to a complete stop, but until it does I guess I will just keep feeling
this way inside.

k it is a poem that is done by me and some were taken frm internet..sooo basically it is all out frm my heart deep inside..i juz dun understand the roller coaster of my life..It is true that life will nvr cum to the end until u r dead..thats hw ur life of roller coaster will stop n nt being confused wif it no more..

k la toddles..